Reclaiming Our Power

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From our earliest days, we are taught to believe. We are taught to obey. We are taught to comply. All in the name of the social contract, the common good. But what if there were those who wanted to take advantage of our accommodating nature? Whether the fear of the wrath of God or the fear of the wrath of The Man, the instrument is the same, as is the outcome.

Like the circus elephant tied to the tree since he was little, we learn our place. Even when that noose is removed, the conclusion is the same. “This is where I have been trained to stay. This is the best I’ve ever had, I’d better not screw it up. This must be a reward for my good behavior. I should be thankful that the chain has been taken away. If I run, they will put it back on, which is worse than where I am now.” We call this learned helplessness. He doesn’t even know to dream of the savannah. He doesn’t even remember that he is an elephant.

Fear and the threat of pain and suffering are powerful mechanisms. When we choose to stay in our cage, it gives us a false feeling of being in control of our lives. We feel a sense of power through ownership of our choice, even though we have actually willingly given all of our power away. The mind can always out reason the heart. In the end, the circus master has achieved his desired goal. It is the perfect self-fulfilling prophecy. He gives two choices that benefit him, and we feel empowered by being allowed to choose between them. Either way, he gets what he wants, and we remain standing in our prison thinking we have won.

For the master, a broken bird is a safe bet. There are those of us who say thank you for bread crumbs. We are easy to keep around. Our predictability makes it simple for them to control us. But do not mistake these power dynamics for caring. They do not have empathy like you or I. It is all selfishly motivated. And we also play our part.

We have agreed to abandon ourselves for what we receive in exchange.

This is called co-dependency. A parasite cannot survive without a host. The only problem is when we tell ourselves that we have no better choice and become filled with resentment and rage. We will be the dog chasing our own tail for as long as we agree to buy into the illusion, and the misery will only grow.

Who is free? Lady Liberty, or those that tower behind her?

When we think of the power and control structures in the world today, we must look at them from the standpoint of the circus master. Truly, what do you believe their desired end result is? Does the government really want to ensure our human rights and our pursuit of happiness? Is that really the reason each of those suits walk the halls each day? When you look at every individual person in a position of power, do you really believe that their love for humanity trumps their lust for power and control? Are their days on the ground really motivated by selflessness for the greater good? Maybe there are a few…

When we look at who is really in control in the world today, the mega-corporations, what do you think their end objectives really are? Look into the heart of big pharma, for example. Do you really believe that pervasive human health could be their objective? If we were all healthy, what would be their reason to exist? Yet we put our trust in their hands because we believe we have no better choice because nobody has given us one. But here’s the rub – they’re making sure you think you don’t have any other choice. That’s the problem with waiting for a savior. We’ve forgotten that only we can save ourselves, and they want to keep it that way.

Just like the elephant who forgot that the savannah is a real thing, and thinks his only choices are chain or no chain, we are gluttonously consuming a diet of fear through mainstream media thinking that our “being informed” is empowering us. Then we respond exactly as they intended, running around afraid to lose something that we are actually willingly giving away. Classic psychological manipulation at work.

What if we stopped to remember that a corporation’s sole purpose is increasing profits? Don’t you see that without consumers (sick people), they have nothing to sell? Where does their propaganda end and where does our own self-deception begin? Why would you NOT question the “truths” they are telling you? Why would you NOT add a healthy dose of skepticism to their “one and only necessary solution for humanity”? Do you love your blindness that much? Does the circus elephant enjoy walking the tightrope? Judging from the vitriol on social media, joy is not the operative word. My guess is that people are not benefitting from their own choices. Those in power are.

We all want to be saved by someone because we have been trained to believe we are powerless. And we will keep letting them lead us around like a puppet on a string until we realize that we are responsible for playing along. For those of us just waiting for someone to give us a better choice, please try to remember just one thing: there are as many choices as we can imagine. Try to think beyond the limitations they have scared you into believing in.

As warriors of the light, we need to not be afraid of looking into the heart of darkness. Only then can we shine on the real truth and offer true healing. As empaths, we don’t like to peer into the minds of those who choose to live in their shadow selves. But we must. We must be able to think like them if we are going to stand up to them. That does not mean be like them, but you cannot win a battle without knowing your enemy.

These shadow people turn human relationships on their heads. They choose their desired outcome first (the reaction they want the little elephant to have when he is grown) and then they craft a narrative to persuade him of this false reality, which will lead to the desired reaction in the end. Whether you’ve been told you are dumb, weak, or worthless, ask yourself why you’ve chosen to agree.

The manipulators always accuse you of doing what they want to prevent you from doing. Lying is a way of life for them as natural as breathing. Remember that. Want a spouse to remain faithful? Make them think they are being watched by accusing them of straying. They will start proving their devotion immediately. This is basic empathy at work – we don’t want our spouse to feel pain, betrayal, insecurity, because we care about others. Want an employee to be more frugal? Accuse them of lavish spending. They will tighten up the purse strings to prove you wrong real quick. That’s the problem with good, honest people. We often don’t realize when we are being manipulated because we don’t see the world in a heartless adversarial way. We put the wellbeing of others first. And this is their best weapon to use against us because it is so predictable.

But those who love power, cutthroat business, those ruthless types – they do see the world like a machine, and humans too. Even in their intimate partnerships. We must learn to be able to decipher the truth from the lies. Some people do not deserve the benefit of the doubt. We must learn to be cunning. We must be able to step into the minds of the shadow people in order to remove the veil from our own eyes. We cannot consent to remain power blind.

The circus master does not love the elephant. He loves the change in his pocket and the fact that it dances when he tells it to.

As a warrior of the light, we also do not pick up our swords and tell the shadow people we see what they are doing and we are ready to challenge them. Pointing this out is simply giving them the advantage. Why would you tell the opposing team which play you’re going to use? Why would you advise your captor that you realize the prison door is open? They will just lock it again. Stop approaching battle with the mind of a child. You must learn to think like they do and then stay ten steps ahead of them – quietly.

In the end, the answer is that we must go to battle within our own souls. This is where we defeat the shadows. We quietly and patiently disempower the fears and unconscious negative beliefs we have about ourselves so that we take their leverage away.

Propaganda doesn’t work if you know it’s bullshit. Slander doesn’t sting if you don’t care. Manipulation doesn’t affect you if you know where it’s trying to lead you and you walk wherever you want to go instead.

Have the courage to remember that your negative beliefs about yourself are not the real you. This disempowers the shadows, it removes their mechanisms of control. Remember who you really are, and then we rise.

Run little elephant, when you have regained your strength. Remember your power. Cast away your self-hatred – it’s not yours anyway. Someone gave that to you and you believed you needed to carry it for them. Set it down and don’t look back. And the next time your circus master is sleeping, walk confidently out that door and lock him inside his own prison.

Maiden Moon: Manifesting with Jupiter and Pluto in Capricorn

Did you plant your seeds of intention at the last new moon? Our manifestations have been growing and are about to bloom. Tonight we will share the first of three Jupiter-Pluto conjunctions. The planet of expansion and the planet of revelation will meet in the sign of Capricorn, a conjunction we haven’t seen in 200 years. May this mark the turning point that leads us into a beautiful collective ascension.

Maiden Moon,
Manifest dreams
As I tread the tender seams
Walking gently ‘tween dark and light
Carry the torch into the night
Cast away the old from the new
Sew together what follows through
May the seeds of dreams unfurl
As I proudly walk this world
So mote it be
Maiden Moon

The Enchanted Forest

When we think of creating sacred space, we often imagine a place that provides us shelter, peace and security. But the further we journey along the path of self-discovery, the more we realize that sacred space is created from within. Your body is your temple, for it houses your mind and spirit. Your body is the intersection of the invisible world of thought, emotion, and inspiration with the physical world, and is what connects the divine to the world around us.

When we dance, we give our spirit permission to share our deepest inner world out in the present moment of time and space. Our dancing bodies can express everything from dreams, to passion, or fear, and can even transmute darkness into light.

“The Enchanted Forest” is a musical meditation for creating divine sanctuary around you. The element of Earth, the root chakra, abundance, healing, and sanctuary, all inspire this music. Close your eyes and imagine your sacred space. Walk through it with your body, paint the scenery with your limbs, touch the magical world you create with your fingertips, and allow dance to take you on a journey into your true sanctuary.

The Sacred Temple: Creating Sanctuary Within and Without

Gaia's Dragon - Michele-Lee Phelan

I stood in the middle of the storm wondering where I might find shelter. My mind raced through a million options, none of which provided any real comfort. My heart was longing for something I could not reach. I knew exactly what it was and where to find it, but the road was laden with impossibility. All paths seemed to lead me in a circle right back to my starting point. Spinning and spinning, a frantic stillness emerged. And that is when they first spoke to me.

I closed my eyes and saw the forest grow before me. I allowed myself to dream it into being until it was real. I pulled the trees up from the earth to create the perfect canopy. On all sides the trunks and limbs wound up toward the sky revealing only the stars above. I stood under their protective embrace and saw the Earth Dragon smile upon me. Next, I drew crystals of all shapes and sizes up from the ground and she smiled at me once more. This power of creation, healing, and abundance, is the gift that the Great Mother offers if we choose to see it. This is what she wanted to show me, so, I bid the herbs and the flowers to grow luxuriously.

Beyond the farthest reaches of this valley, the Golden Dragon flew. The mountain peaks grew toward the sky, covered in the whitest of snow. Now I knew that the winds of purity and truth would guard this realm from above. She perched her magnificent frame upon the tallest stone. From here she would surveil the land. Not one dark thought would be allowed to enter.

As I lowered my gaze and turned to one side, the Water Dragon covered me with one wing. She flooded my heart and soul with the sea until my tears flowed to the floor. The healing waters of emotion washed through every crevice of my soul, turning into streams throughout my forest. Sparkling brooks curved their way through stone as she surrounded this land with her love. She would always be the gateway to the heart, as would I.

To the South the fire raged in the belly of the beast. She was beautiful and fierce. The life source of creation. The burning flame of destruction and transmutation. I looked down and saw her in my belly. I drew her up and sent her beyond the walls of this realm that I had created, to fly the skies in defense of Justice. After breathing her fire truth to mankind, only one chance to choose would remain.

Will you accept your quest for self-purification or will the Great Mother do it for you? Has the state of the world not become painfully clear? Will you be cast into the heart of the earth to be compressed into nothing but your true form? Transmuted into white light that will shine nobly from her crown? You can walk yourself through this dark night of the soul, or it can be forced upon you. Either way, you must face nothingness to be born again. Passing through perfect emptiness before shining again. Body returns to stone until the Phoenix is reborn. The grave and the womb under this moon.

From the darkness emerges the light. If you reach deep, deep down and dare to hold hope humbly and tenderly within your hands, you will find liberation. But it requires complete release and surrender. It demands that you hurl yourself blindly into wonder. It is becoming the essence of awe.

Standing in the midst of your chaos, pause. Close your eyes so that your heart may feel. Quiet the mind so that your intuition can heal. You already know the way.

As I stood surrounded by my four elemental dragons, I realized that aether had been created within me. I had beckoned them here to guide me. I had not seen the path available to me because I did not realize that I had wings. My eyes had been steadfastly affixed to the ground at my feet. I looked to the stars, shook the dust from my scales, and took to the skies, knowing that my temple would always be there – within me. I no longer needed to look for shelter.

May we all use this remaining day of the waning moon to purge that which binds us to our prisons, opting instead to manifest something glorious. The new moon in Aries will soon rise before us. We can lay ourselves upon the altar willingly or we can perish in the arms of our control. When we use our free will in the service of others, we become of Gaia. What seeds will you plant? What will you grow? We are making a new world. What will yours look like?

Virgo Full Moon: A Day Without Women in Mexico

What would it be like if all of the women just vanished? #UnDiaSinMujeres is taking over Mexico today, in case you haven’t heard. Women are taking to the streets, leaving workplaces empty, in order to protest the terrible violence against women that plagues this country and the world. I wouldn’t say its any better in the US – it is just a more insidious beast. The dehumanization is the same.

In a way, women already vanished a long time ago. When the divine flame was extinguished in Vesta’s temple, consumption overtook the world. Existence grew into a plague. An insatiable hunger that was no longer balanced by a reverence for creation. An entitlement to the fruits of the earth – raped and pillaged – while the Great Mother, cast aside, was devoured before our eyes. Her entire existence reduced to serving us. This dynamic seems to keep playing itself out from the smallest corners of our homes to the macrocosm of our current state of affairs.

Saturn, the planet of restriction and oppression, will be leaving Pisces soon and making his way into Aquarius, the sign of great new visions for the world. New radical paradigms are emerging. The rules are changing.

This full moon in Virgo is the time of purification of the long lost Goddess. Virgo will be driven to clean up this mess we made. May the Goddess shed the vile slanders that have been cast upon her for generations. She has borne them long enough. The seeds we planted at our last new moon will now begin to bloom. May woman stand beautifully proud in her own skin without shame. The shame does not belong to her, but to them. The sacred sensual force that is the Divine Feminine has been reignited and there will be no apologies.

We spent the last weeks wandering through the Piscean wonderland of angels and demons, wondering what is real. Spinning dazed through dreams and visions, trying to decipher what is meant to be. Wondering when we were awake and when we were really dreaming. Well, the truth is, we are manifesting our visions all the time. Which dream will you bring about?

Will you fall into the snowballing world of darkness? Or will you generate a world of brave new beginnings? Wherever your mind continues to wander is what you are feeding. Choose wisely. The chains of the devil are nurtured by fear, collective blindness, and hysteria.

Venus now sits in Taurus, her home, where she feels safe and at peace. She is conjunct Neptune, the planet of ancient wisdom and the future, where she will be showing us what we really care about. What really matters to you on a soul level? Are you listening to your heart? Or are you accepting your chains, your prison? Are you succumbing to the labels placed upon you? Hopelessness, powerlessness, predetermination? So small under the weight of the world. They want you to accept the role of the victim. That is the way they control you.

Well, for me, I am not letting them write my story. This is an opportunity to bring our self-worth to a higher frequency. Dare to love yourself enough to stand up for what is rightfully yours. No matter how angry it makes them. No matter how much they beat you back down. Stand up anyway. Reestablishing balance will never be pleasant for those at the top. They will try to protect their spoils. I am glad Mexican women are fighting for this today. I will be joining them. Mercury is about to go direct – let’s make our voices heard.

The womb of creation exists within each one of us. The divine feminine – that is the spark. Casting women aside amounts to self-destruction. We see what our world is becoming. When will they all open their eyes to the truth that is before them? Will they deny it still as the waters consume them? As the fires ravage everything around us?

I know what it’s like when the bottom falls out and everyone just looks the other way. Silent onlookers masking their cowardice with a self-righteous facade of neutrality. They will all face their karma in due time. But the bottom line is this – nobody will fight this fight for us. If we don’t honor ourselves, who will?

There may be times when we are powerless to prevent injustice, but there must never be a time when we fail to protest.

– Elie Wiesel

The hearth is ablaze and Vesta has swung open the doors to her temple. It is time to reclaim who we really are – fully. Do not look away.

Retrograde Revelations

A period of unavoidable stillness. Mercury churns in reverse through the dreamscape of Pisces. There is no unseeing what is being revealed. The chasm between the old and the new expands. We must choose whether to fall or fly.

When the Hanged Man looks at his life, he sees it from a new perspective. He has been content to hang by one foot. We nurture our own hell when we resign ourselves to ignoring our hearts. Life is only a prison if we let them make the rules. Passengers in someone else’s story.

The world is ablaze. Now is when we need our dreams the most – the soul’s life raft. One is a bridge to liberation and the other an anchor to despair. Be grateful for the messages as they sear your tender heart. Awakening is painful.

When the Great Mother gives birth to something new, the violent contractions of her womb push forth new life. The closing in forces an eruption, tearing away with it whatever remained attached to the old.

The child cannot remain in the womb or it will die. Resistance is futile. The innocent soul is violently hurled into dark compression. But this is where diamonds are formed. The light only sparkles upon them once they reach the other side.

Maybe loss is liberation. Stripping away our reasons to remain suspended where we are. Maybe fear is really adventure. The battleground between our purpose and our resistance.

I don’t know, but I’m writing my own story – and I choose to make it beautiful. Surrender doesn’t mean giving up. It means accepting what the heart already knows. The Universe whispers at first. Then it roars.

The Empress Emerges from Stillness

Restoring Our Divine Feminine With This New Moon in Aquarius

Pluto will be around for a while and we will continue to work through our shadow sides over the next few months. But the Sun has just moved brightly into Aquarius and is challenging us to open up to receive the divine cosmic messages that the universe is sending us. In this new age, our essence leads the way, and the systems and structures of the past decay.

The Empress will bloom our new world into existence like the lotus of the sacral chakra. Our soul’s mission has already been born, but we must nurture it. This is the gift of the Divine Feminine. This is the domain of The Empress. The High Priestess knows the answers, and the Empress knows the way.

The Empress is Authentic Creation

In the Tarot, The Empress represents love, creativity, beauty, grace. Along with the Divine Wisdom that the High Priestess has encouraged us to embrace, we are being given permission to release our inner Empress. She represents the connection to Mother Earth and life itself.

Nurturing, creative self-expression, sensuality, these are all aspects of the Empress. She encourages you to create beauty in your life. Balance the divine masculine energies with the divine feminine. It is in this union, in this harmony, that we find our own soul’s true purpose.

What steps will you be taking to unleash your inner Empress? May the manifesting powers of the new moon in Aquarius empower your best intentions!

A thanks to the wonderful work of Molly McCord, who is teaching me practically everything I know about astrology.