The First Whispers of the High Priestess

How to Restore Our Divine Feminine with this Aquarius New Moon

We are at a turning point once again. We spent months realizing, identifying, accepting and releasing everything that needed to left behind. A dramatic ending heralded a new beginning, and now we are being asked to step into our authentic selves. After shedding many layers of society’s rules and regulations, other’s expectations, and the self-limiting beliefs that we had grown accustomed to, the time is finally here to reveal, release, and nurture our soul’s true purpose.

But how? The answers are not always clear, and the astrological alignments continue to keep some revelations hidden, making our path not fully illuminated. The High Priestess reminds us to surrender and trust that we know how we need to move forward. Or perhaps a better way to phrase it is that we feel what we really want.

Learning to Trust Our Intuition

Learning to separate the voice of the mind from the feelings of the heart is the first step toward embracing our intuition. For without a balance between our masculine and feminine selves, our true soul’s purpose cannot be achieved. Our inner and outer selves must be in harmony. We must respect the whispers of our intuition by letting her flowing waters guide us. The astrological placements of Venus in Pisces at this time are helping us in this regard.

When were challenged by the eclipses to end toxic relationships, habits, and patterns, The High Priestess set the stage for us with a call for stillness and deep inner reflection. Those of us who were able to quiet our minds were able to realize what we has always known, but forgotten. We agreed to put the swords away. We asked The Emperor and The Hierophant within each of us to take a back seat for a while, exchanging control for surrender and trust. This was the first step toward manifesting a new world.

A thanks to the wonderful work of Molly McCord, who is teaching me practically everything I know about astrology.

Spellcasting Preparation for this New Moon in Aquarius

Unleashing Our Soul’s Purpose, Healing the Divine Feminine

This new moon in Aquarius marks the beginning of our collective and personal new chapters. We have purged the old that stood in our way, and excavated the light that represents the true bliss deep in our souls. Now, as we plant the seeds of our intentions, be very clear of what you are leaving behind and what you are nurturing into being.

Aquarius is a humanitarian and revolutionary thinker who wishes to break down authority and convention. The new moon in the sign of Aquarius is offering us an opportunity to bring into being a whole new way of doing things. May we change the world through our vision and healing. Allow these beautiful energies to support your spellcasting on this new moon.

Preparation: North and South Nodes

First, you must determine which area of your life resonates the most with your dreams or calls to you most deeply. Forego the “shoulds” and the “woulds” and focus on that which brings you true joy. Those things that put you in your bliss. If you aren’t sure, you may want to check your natal chart for guidance.

The North Node represents your soul’s purpose and the challenges you must overcome in order to achieve your highest potential. Depending on which sign and house the North Node falls in, you will see in which direction you will achieve the greatest flow in life. The South Node represents the place of comfort where you may be languishing and resisting what the universe is calling upon you to do. The South Node also has a corresponding zodiac sign and house. It is useful to make note of how these aspects present in your daily life. Then consider ways for achieving greater balance between the elements of the two nodes.

The North Node represents that which is ahead of you. The South Node represents that which is in the past. We must achieve a balance between the two in order to pursue our soul’s path wholeheartedly.

Some Questions to Ask Yourself

  • Which activities make me feel like I reconnect with myself at the soul level?
  • What obstacles prevent me from immersing myself in this fully?
  • Which self-limiting beliefs or fears accompany these obstacles?
  • If I were to release all of those fears and self-limiting beliefs, what could my next steps look like?

Outlining Your Intention

Once you are clear about your direction, take a moment to meditate on your ideal final outcome. Don’t be afraid to dream big! This Aquarius energy is powerful, disruptive, and long term, so be sure to take your manifestation all the way to the stars! Get out of your mind and follow your heart.

Spellcasting for this New Moon in Aquarius: Unleashing Your Soul’s Purpose

I will be posting a list of materials and supplies, along with a basic outline of this spellcasting. I also hope to have a video ready to accompany you in your ceremony, if you wish to use it. This way, we can combine our magick into shared work! Blessed be!

A thanks to the wonderful work of Molly McCord, who is teaching me practically everything I know about astrology.

Erase Me

Sometimes it’s better to give people what they think they want. “The ego’s dictate is “seek but do not find.” – Marianne Williamson

Erase me, here, let me help you
Everything I ever did
Everything I ever said

Erase me, here, let me help you
Everything I ever built
Everything I ever wrote

Erase me, I know you're trying to
Every arrow that I blocked
Every torrent that I stopped

Erase me, I know you want to
Every hand that I out held
Every bliss I ever dealt

Erase me, here, I can help you I'm gone
I guess you've won
Are you done?

Erase me, here, let me help you
Are you proud of what you've done?
Look at what you have become
In my non-existence
My beautiful non-existence

Now that I'm gone, can I move on?
Because I'm done

Erase me, unwind me to the beginning of time
Where I am no longer even mine

Erase me, go ahead, I know you want to
Erasing me won't get you away from you
In the mirror that same face will always look back at you
Even though I'm gone

Erase me, here, let me help you
Every smile you ever owned
Every touch you ever loaned

Erase me, here, let me help you
Every angry word I said
Every whisper I misread

Erase me, here, let me help you
Every melody I've sung
Every dance I've ever done

I'll make a new one
In my beautiful non-existence
I've already won because I'm gone

Lost Emperor: The Illusion of Control

Domination and Coercive Control

In my last blog entry, The Emperor is Out of Control, we looked at the Major Arcana archetype of The Emperor in his negative presentation, and the mirroring of these aspects in tyrannical and authoritarian governments. Entitlement, force, manipulation. These are all aspects both share.

Now, let’s see how these energies present in intimate partner relationships. “Psychopaths are intraspecies predators who use charm, manipulation, intimidation, and violence to control others and to satisfy their selfish needs” (Hare, 1996, p. 26). What is the common theme here?

Entitlement Over Others: Spiritual Theft

Every human on this planet strives to influence others in order to ensure that their own basic needs are met. This is natural. We try to impress our bosses, we strive to appeal to our intimate partners, we project confidence and toughness to those that might cause us harm. However, there is a difference between striving and stealing. When one intentionally uses deceit to control someone under the guise of “love,” this crosses the threshold into evil.

It is like eminent domain of the soul, without the possibility of just compensation. A theft under the pretense of love.

When someone uses threats or force to prevent another person from breeching their own personal boundaries, this is a natural defensive instinct. They are enforcing the protection of something that belongs to them. Something that they innately have ownership of, such as their own body, thoughts, feelings, identity, and basic human rights like life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

However, when an individual behaves with a sense of entitlement to exert coercive control over other human beings in order to force them to give up something of their own, this is something quite different. This is parasitic behavior. One is protective, the latter is predatory. The predator feeds on the souls of others as if it is his right. He does not value the soul because he does not have one. He wants everyone to agree with him, to be and think like him. This validation bestows upon him a false sense of belonging. The truth is that they know they are different, this is why they are desperate to hide it.

Soul Theft: Gaslighting, Manipulation, and Erasing Others

The soul predator’s desire to control is wrapped up in a pretty little patterned paper of “the absence of compassion or empathy,” and is tied up with a bow of a “willingness to use any means necessary to achieve their desired ends.” There is no bottom. But nobody sees that until the water has reached the boiling point. For most, at this point, it is too late. And the strategy always includes preemptive narrative control. One must be very sharp to see it.

Alarmingly, science has proven that the traits of malignancy in humans tend to increase over time, ie with age. It is an epidemic of grave proportions that is spreading, and people are living longer. Psychopaths exist at the highest levels of governments and hide behind facades of corporate leadership and cultish missions.

These soulless humans have one objective: to surround themselves with a group of obedient “adorers” who are easy to manipulate and are groomed over time to accept complete domination and control. Every time there is a push back, the consequence becomes more severe, and obedience is rewarded with flattery and false affection. The target learns quickly.

Left unchecked, an ‘army’ of believers will be used to carry out the tyrant’s objectives. We have seen how this can play out in politics and government, as well as in interpersonal relationships. As a society, what are we to do?

The High Priestess Can Show Us the Way

How do we bring The Emperor into balance? I believe that we must begin by raising the loving and intuitive qualities of the Divine Feminine back to their rightful place – a place of equality. A place of balance. Emotion, intuition, introspection, stillness. We must tune out the noise, the arguments, and the explanations, and we must do more listening. But listening to ourselves. Trusting the deep inner knowing.

We must begin with healing the Divine Feminine, because we cannot offer healing to others when we ourselves are broken. The Divine Masculine also needs healing. The Lost Emperor needs a soul. Whether the latter is possible to accomplish remains to be seen, but we will never know until we try. And the first step is opening the eyes of those people who, knowingly or knot, are marching to the beat of the tyrant’s drum. They must ascend beyond the 3D.

No more shaming of emotions, no more holding back tears. No more mocking the Divine Wisdom that The Great Mother whispers among the trees. The Lost Emperor ridicules because he does not know how to feel. But were he secretly offered a choice, I believe he would take it. For the truth is, when one is a slave to one’s fear of losing control, control has already been lost.

The Emperor is Out of Control

Lost Emperor, Make Way for the High Priestess

The High Priestess
of the Major Arcana in Tarot, embodies the Divine Feminine, sacred knowledge, intuition, change, and new beginnings. At this moment, we are coming out of thousands of years of rule by The Emperor. In his positive aspect, this archetype brings authority, establishment, and structure. In his negative aspect, these qualities appear in excess and become destructive. The Emperor becomes a tyrant, controlling, rigid and domineering.

The positive qualities of the Emperor are intrinsic to the functioning of a healthy society, however, it is glaringly obvious that this energy has spun out of control. When universal energies are not balanced by their counterparts, they become toxic. The Divine Feminine has been crushed and trampled almost to death, but the age of her return is upon us.

Emperor Out of Balance: Domination and Control

The Emperor, in his excessively negative and dysfunctional presentation, represents domineering and controlling energies. Remember, all archetypes present in all genders, but for clarity I will refer to them as they are depicted in the Rider Waite Tarot deck.

A tyrant is someone who places his needs before others, valuing himself above others, one who lacks compassion, human connection, and uses more force when force does’t work the first time. It is the energy of someone who cannot compromise, only knows how to up the ante, and cares only about winning. Major Arcana cards represent archetypes. Actual human beings are comprised of many different energies that are usually somewhat fluid and changeable.

Domination and Control in Governments

Now take a moment to compare the above mentioned characteristics to the following “evil” forms of government: An autocrat is defined as someone who insists on complete obedience from others, using cruel and despotic means to control and subjugate them. Dictatorships, a kind of Autocracy, are typically viewed as brutally repressive regimes where power lies in the hands of a single individual. Basically, everything Western democratic governments supposedly abhor.

The Universal Declaration of Human Rights was established in 1948 in response to the atrocities of WWII, led by one of the most infamous autocrats of all time, Adolf Hitler. And what did the worst autocrats like Hitler and Stalin do? They ruthlessly and systematically dehumanized people.

Hitler dehumanized anyone who did not bestow him with absolute allegiance. In fact, toward the end of the war, he even threatened to eradicate all Germans who did not support him completely. His sense of entitlement over others was absolute and universal. According to the Tarot, Hitler clearly embodies the characteristics of The Emperor at his worst. Manipulative, cruel, selfish, non-human. In my view, a body without a soul. A human-less human.

Many decry the comparisons of the current government in the US to previous tyrants. We know that Putin already ranks. But what people fail to comprehend is that the decay is progressive and gradual. The analogy of the boiling frog is poignant once again. Liberty is stolen one step at a time, until the circle is complete and we are trapped inside. The wise ones know to pay attention from the first footstep.

X. Phoenix Rising

“Darkening Moon” by Vanessa Hylande

The High Priestess and Pluto: Ten Steps From Darkness to Light

For me, I’m going to be doing things in a whole new way this year. I took the entire year of 2019 to allow the Phoenix to burn away completely. How miraculous it is to be left with nothing but your own soul! What a new perspective it brings. A totally new lease on life. It’s amazing how anxiety gives way to joy when you have nothing left to lose. Even in complete destruction, creation triumphs. A soul can only willingly be given away, no matter how hard the darkness may try to take it.

Anything can be overcome, and made even better in the end. It requires patience, honor, selflessness, and complete surrender. This is where true strength lies. This is what makes up our humanity. Reptiles attack, kill, destroy, and conquer. Let them destroy each other if they must. But we don’t need to be a part of it.

Waking up is an endless losing what you think you know, like a wave of destruction that leaves nothing, but what is true.


The truth is here, my soul sisters. Let those of us who have learned this, dance together through life in happiness and joy. We know how to lead the charge.

Surrender is the Path to Love

I chose to cast away the shackles of the old paradigm. Only the phoenix can accomplish this. It must be done willingly and completely and there is no turning back. It is complete surrender – for without surrender there cannot be real love. This is, in fact, what unconditional love is. Being able to set aside the ego completely for the sake of someone else, or even for oneself.

Without real love, we are just empty vessels pretending our way through life, endlessly trying to fill the void inside of us from the outside. Surrender is difficult, but emptiness is worse.

Only the Truth Remains

The only thing we will all have with us when we pass to the other side is the authentic truth. Nobody can fool themselves in death, for it is the bringer of Judgment. Believe in God or not, we all know the truth even if we lie to the world or ourselves.

At the end we are left alone with ourselves and our choices, and the stories we tell ourselves don’t matter anymore. Nobody escapes this. None of the lie believers can step across the threshold with you. We are left to face ourselves alone. For me, I’ll take my chances with the straight and narrow, even if it takes twice as long and is twice as hard. I want to remain in the light where the answers are easy.

The condor is finally taking flight and The Hierophant can go on a long, long hiatus. The Age of The High Priestess is here. We have waited long enough. The old ways won’t fix this, so together we will take it and make it ours. And we will make it beautifully.

IX. The Power of Surrender

The High Priestess and Pluto: Ten Steps From Darkness to Light

Photography by the esteemed Howard Schatz, Orenstein Studios

For those of you who have experienced birthing a child from your womb, you know that there is a certain point of no return once you begin active labor. Aside from the physical pain, the psychological transformation is humbling. In one moment, you realize there is no other way but forward. You have only one option. I believe it is a beautiful rite of passage, because it teaches us that life is not, and will never be, in our control.

Birthing the New Age

Once we truly embrace this fact, no matter how uncomfortable or scary, we can find joy even while the fires burn around us. Think of this paradigm shift as the literal birthing of the New Age of the High Priestess. Those who resist it may wind up with an emergency cesarian. Either way, the baby is coming out. Up to you how difficult you make it.

We just had a planetary alignment not seen since 1523. In that year, war was already beginning to brew in Central Europe, which would culminate in the most consequential battle of Central European history, The Battle of Mohács in 1526. This battle historically marks the end of the Middle Ages. The end of an age then, and the end of an age now. 2020 will not be boring.

Why does this matter? Well, for those of us cringing at the current state of the world, you might feel like history is rhyming. Well, you are right. Big changes are afoot. But the beauty of change is that it is filled with endless possibility. Let us allow ourselves to dream up another Renaissance.

Forward Thinking or Backward Looking?

Will you be one of the ones struggling to preserve the decaying methods of power and control, or will you lead the charge toward a new world? Will you be creative or defensive? Progressive or Conservative? Forward thinking or backward looking? And I mean that in a totally non-political way, though the entendre is quite poignant.

Are you able to envision something completely new and unproven, and dream it into existence? Or will you be a furious source of destruction as you thrash about and desperately try to squeeze the last metaphoric drop of lemon juice out of the lemon? What if we tried planting more lemon trees instead? Let’s plant an orchard while we are at it.