You woke up that morning and said to me:

“Mommy, I had a terrible dream that someone tried to take me.”

And I told you not to worry,

That I would never let anyone take you from me.

But I never thought for one minute, that it would be

Someone within our own four walls that would take you from me.

My beautiful son, they crave a fight and they’ll use you to get to me.

I don’t want you to be a part of their war.

I don’t want you growing up playing that role

The way your brothers had to, because I didn’t know.

The only way they can’t fight me is if they cant find me

Think of it like my cloak of invisibility –

Its the only way I can protect you from their enmity.

But you are always with me.

I still hold and cry with your favorite puppy,

Wishing you were back here in my arms with me.

My beautiful son,

The light of my life,

Please find your way back home

Whenever you are strong enough

And it is safe for you to venture on your own.

Happy Birthday, Julian Hylande.

Love,

Mommy